Lifes in a mess now, i wish things could be simpler.
I just hope to be healthier and be stronger emotionally and hopefully at the end of the day, the guy im dating will realise that all this while, ive been liking him so much and have been changing in some ways for him and hopefully he appreciates me more...
I hope the next entry will be a happier one...
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Hmm i feel kinda lost and alil bit of sad now. Right now, im dating this guy whos younger than me and i feel alot of insecurities in me. hes young, pretty hot and everyone seems to want a piece of him. i know that he likes me, but i just cant help being over protective and over sensitive and jealous as well.
Just yesterday he told me he cant get over his previous relationship which ended 3 months ago. That was his first relationship and it didnt end well and he sorta promised his ex to wait for him.
And they are meeting soon just to catch up. Im just scared. I dont wana get hurt. But i want him to be happy though.
Ive been thinking about him alot today. I initially thought that things wont go so fast, that i wont fall for him so fast. but as we enjoy each others company and phone calls, i begin to like him more and more. And i just think that today he was kinda not as warm to me. Well maybe im too sensitive or overparanoid but somehow i think he doesnt like me as much anymore. I think i would be upset if things dont work out between us. Somehow, we come from different worlds. hes going to have a great career path ahead of him, hes very smart and athletic. Im just a happy go lucky guy who wants to enjoy life and party hard. Somehow, hes trying to adjust to my lifestyle and somehow im trying to change myself too... to be more straight acting and behave more properly in public. Even my friends can tell that im changing. Sigh, maybe im thinking too much, maybe im expecting too much. My friend told me, just enjoy each others company and hang out but dont commit. Then whats the point of dating anyway?
Maybe im just not that good at the dating game. He just texted me, "cheer up and good night!"
Is that all he has to say? Hmmm..... i just hope i will feel better tmr..........
